KENNETH OBASI: I HAVE ALWAYS WANTED TO BE AN ARTIST

I have always seen myself as an artist, right from childhood till date, but I grew up noticing that people around me failed to see things the way I do. I was lost in my search for self-actualization as a result of inner struggles and lack of acceptance from significant figures of the fear that I was going to end up a retch. Today, I am ironically ending up a rich as I have never lost sight of my vision. Keep reading...




I grew up amidst five elder sisters and three younger sisters without a brother; the situation made people envied me to have been over pampered that I ended up tossed towards the probability of falling on either side of the coin of self-acceptance.

It was extremely hard to become the man I have wanted to become, because I lived in the world of the unknown – the world that women had control over my wishes.   It was quite funny because, every one step I made was questioned, as it was contravening the laws of the amazons. An amazon thinks she is a man, without understanding the laws of nature. Every woman needs a man. I was there to defend rather than to compete. The struggle became too intent that I had to introspect. 

I never gave up becoming the man I have wanted to become. I have always wanted to be an artist. When I graduated from Primary to Secondary school, I found a brother and friend that never had a clue about my focus in life that I was headed to; I was confused because I saw the brother in him that I was looking for, but all he wanted was an accomplice. I keyed into his world because I would not let go our friendship, even though I lost focus unknown to me. I graduated into senior secondary school broken, trying to trace back my steps. I knew I have wanted to become an artist, but everything then seem impossible until I made up my mind to part ways with my brother and friend. It was hard for me, but everything happened naturally because I changed as our life style no longer corresponds, and I was left to the mercy of self-actualization.

FOCUSING ON SOMETHING COMPLETELY NEW

I attended a secondary school that had no program for students who wanted to become artists, so I joined the band wagon of those who JUST wanted to grab the university certificate. Though my entrance result to the university to study creative arts was very good, I did not know how to go about it.   I decided to draw alternative courses of preference: Mass Communication, Psychology, Economics, and Sociology. I eventually got admission to study Psychology; indeed, what felt like a trial, turned out to be one of those happy “accidents”.

It would surprise you to know that I used to be cyber-phobic; the idea going to learn how to operate computers was completely new to me and intimidating. I had to learn something while waiting for my entrance examination result to the university. I discovered I was very good at computer applications as I graduated top of the class at the end of the program. I became more confident to use computers and my phobia left.

I graduated from the university becoming more a better person, willing to do anything a man could do to be successful, but life became unbearable until I connected myself with the right friends, who introduced me to reading LITERATURE that would bring me back to my feet.

I struggled finding a stable job, but my expectations were not forth coming. I decided to try freelance printing and photography; the sheer fact that I was a fresh graduate and incompetent made me lost contracts, did jobs at lost ends, and I became disillusioned. I could no longer continue as I needed to CHANGE strategy.

LETTING GO OF EXPECTATIONS AND JUST DO SOMETHING

Life is not about finding out what you want and then trying hard to reach these expectations. Life is not about your dreams, ideas and fantasies. Life is about the experiences and lessons one is able to gain doing something productive. I left my comfort zone to seek new opportunities elsewhere.

I got a job in a safety company. Being productive feels good and helped me to ease my mind against self-doubt. The fact that I started doing something (reading books, working with my colleagues, going to client meetings) was enough to free myself from doubts, though not completely until I stumbled into creative arts - blogging. Because I needed to hit the road now on a journey, I will leave the topic of 'How I sublimated Creative Art into  Blogging" for my next blog post. Subscribe to MR. KEN'S WORLD by Email for free to get updates on our subsequent posts. Enjoy the rest of our old posts you skipped, and do not forget to leave us with your so cherished a comment. Keep surfing…